what a fool i have been to wonder
if he might have a care for me
how insane the thought that you could be to him
dear in any way....

you know when it's late at night and you're just sitting there

and you get to thinking

and you look at a few pictures

some of you, some of them

and you realize

that life just didn't mean it to happen that way

and you never will forget
the way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliette...

meh

it wasn't meant to happen

and wishes are only shooting stars

but i'm tired of wishing on shooting stars

i'm tired of seeing the moon

(only a reflection of who you really are)

i just want the sun

just....the true light....

who are you really?

can you answer your own questions?

can you be who you really are?

or, in your anxiety to be different, are you conforming...

that a more absurd young girl has lived i doubt that you could say...

i am once again in so much trouble....

at least i'm not angry anymore

oh what are you doing to me?

no canary in a cage for me
this canary's ready to fly free....
cut the cord - is that a man i once adored?
he's nothing but an albatross no great loss
double crosser!
forget about the boy....

we touch and my heart does a whiz bang flip flop
heaven for a minute....

ahhhh

god damn blue eyes

*sighs*

i think i'm lost

whatever

yesterday also kind of got my hopes up

but i shouldn't think about what she said

we just fool around

we're just friends

but that doesn't mean i can't like him as more

but i can know that that's all we'll ever be

cause we're from different worlds

and we have different friends

and it would never work

even if he is a perfect gentleman

like

seriously

oh well

he's fun

we're friends

that's all that matters

and i hope that with school here that doesn't end

cause i don't think my life would be anything without his smile

<3

the first week of the two most exhausting weeks of my life are OVER

although it did give me a preview of this entire school year

and thankfully only two mental breakdowns were counted within five days

so i think i'm doing pretty damn well

meeting tonight

i have to go shower

but i haven't been on the comp all week

so yes

i have In The Stone stuck in my head

god damn it

i don't have a life

anyway

it's good

you know that place i always talked about

that place/time i missed

i know where it is

and i'm missing it like crazy

cause i'm always missing something

life's like that

it's just beyond my knowledge to understand

but i want to

please

let me understand